Here I Go Again...

Spencer and I have some friends who just had a baby (Brad & Stephanie). We love spending time with them. Spencer and Brad have a lot in common, and me and Steph have a good time chatting! Well, they had a beautiful baby girl. She is so darn cute! We have visited them a few times since the new addition, and of course it does not help my baby hunger! I am so anxious. It's on my mind constantly. Everything that I think about, I can somehow relate it to having a baby. I just can't wait. I've said before that I feel like this is my calling in life as it is for every mom, but I really feel like all of my efforts will go to our children & Spencer, and that is also where all of my joy will come from. I can't wait for our little rugrats to get here, and I'm not even pregnant! :/ It is really hard for me sometimes. It's especially frustrating when I hear about those girls who got pregnant on accident, and wasn't really thnking about having a baby, because I am so ready to take on the challenge, and want it so bad. I know I'm still young, I know I have plenty of time to raise a family, but I don't want anything else. Poor Spencer hears about it all the time. I bug him a lot about it. He is patient with me though, and he understands that it's something that is hard for me. We don't know when we will start trying. We have agreed to wait until we both feel like the time is right. Who knows when that will be... Sorry that all I can think of to talk about is having a baby! Haha.